Best recent thing.~
I just feel writing something down will help me think and feel better? Sorry if this bothers you in any way.
So well, ive realized something rather frustrating. I'm a really shy and nervous person? I usually expect the worst of myself and others when meeting new people or being around strangers. Like, I'm going to say something that offends them or makes them think less of me or they will judge me for the things I do/like. This causes me to be very unemotional around strangers, even people my friends/family trust. And even worst, if I want to meet someone I usually get over shadowed by someone else. I just watch them have conversations and sometimes add useless things to them. I seem so uninterested when its not the case!
I'm silent when I'm happy, I'm silent when I'm sad, I'm silent always. And when I speak people I know even act like Ive become a whole different person.
Okay this is getting stupid I need to change the topic.
... Er, I feel I would get too emotional talking about anything else. I know that's the point of vents but... Er, forget it.
...So uh what do you guys like to listen to when you need cheering up? Just you know wondering.
Sorry about any spelling errors or anything I'm reeeaallly tired.